Hello

My week off went by so fast.

I had a lot to think about and I decided that a lot of it had to do with misunderstandings so i called olivia and wanted to talk about it and of course i got her answering machine, i left a message telling her that i just wanted to talk and that i did not call to fight. Well she never called me back and today at lunch she and Christine shot me dirty looks and i decided that i just don't care anymore she is not worth all the energy that i put in to it. I know in the depths of my heart and soul that i didn't do anything wrong. She was the one to say the hurtful things behind my back. I didn't say any of the things she thinks i did. Emily( someone i thought was my best friend) like to be liked( because of a past experience) and to do that she like to have people hear what they want to hear, because live and Christine wanted to hear bad things i said about them she would twist things i said so that it would sound the way they wanted it to be. I am so sorry that they have nothing better in their lives than to just made other hurt . One day the things they say are going to come and but them in the butt- hard and then all the people they made feel like crap can rest knowing that the crap they were put through wasn't all a waste of time. I feel like i grown so much, I can rest knowing that i was the bigger people even though she never answered and it is so stupid. She hates me because of my character that is not something i can change like the drop of a hat. It is stupid that they can't handle a little scarcam or a little fun play.

To all those you hold hatered in you heart:

CAN YOU SLEEP AT NIGHT KNOWNING WHAT YOU ARE DOING IS HURTING PEOPLE ?

because you are the person who has to deal with it and ultmantly pay the price.

If you were to die tomorrow would you be able to be at peace with yourself because if you don't then you have a lot of soul searching to do.